Dear Baba,
Thanks for the B'day wishes. :) I had probably the best B'Day of my life. :) The morning I got up and decided to just leave all my 'ego-identities' such as work, people, admits everything behind for a day and just spend some quite moments with myself. I took a complete day off from college and travelled alone around 75 kms in public transport carrying just the book you had gifted me. I had some awesome pizza,met a brilliant Italian photographer (S. Sarajano: http://sarjano.com/) and went to a beautiful secluded beach in North Goa. All this time I was trying my best to remain aware of the freshness of every moment. Any unnecessary references to the past and I noted to myself "That's okay, but it's gone, this very second is so beautiful." Any worries about the future and I was like: " That's Okay, but isn't it another fantasy projection of the mind." What is beautiful and real is the Now. By the end of the day when I was returning back to campus and was gazing past the beautiful Goan landscape a feeling clearly from beyond the realm of thinking mind, I was so absorbed and overwhelmed by the present i wasn't really thinking. I quickly took out my diary which I carry everywhere and wrote out of utter spontaneity: "If you can let go of the past and spend a life in the discovery of the Now, aren't you born every moment, isn't every second then a celebration of a truly 'Happy' Birthday?" And i felt i was indeed born again, 21 years young. My goal is slowly evolving to be born every moment staring at awe at the manifestations of mother nature. I hope this will deepen and make my interest in Science, more compassionate and selfless.
Okay so back to human-reality ( :P ) My friend just received an admit from Carnegie Mellon, for Masters Program in Electronics. Although I was very happy for him I was equally shocked to see the expenditure per year of the program: $ 58,000! And that is just what is the cost of the program, Living and food expenses in Pittsburg by even meagre standards should cost another 15-20k?Even the US percapita income median is lower than this. Most universities do not offer any aid to Masters students. Isn't this insane? However tons of Indian students will be taking massive loans to cover these expenses in the hope of finding a job in the US to pay of these debts. :( I slowly realised that working hard on your research and applying for a funded PhD. program (although tougher to get) might be a better option, which came naturally to me, thankfully due to the grace of Babaji. Also i felt that if had to take such loans i would have to spend at least 2-3 years working for any job before I can even think of applying for PhD. Also the burden on parents who will be mortgaging the loan is something I can't subjugate on them. I realise I have nothing but to be thankful for. Just thought I might share with you. Please bless me that I can be aware at all times and observe each moment as it is.
Okay so back to human-reality ( :P ) My friend just received an admit from Carnegie Mellon, for Masters Program in Electronics. Although I was very happy for him I was equally shocked to see the expenditure per year of the program: $ 58,000! And that is just what is the cost of the program, Living and food expenses in Pittsburg by even meagre standards should cost another 15-20k?Even the US percapita income median is lower than this. Most universities do not offer any aid to Masters students. Isn't this insane? However tons of Indian students will be taking massive loans to cover these expenses in the hope of finding a job in the US to pay of these debts. :( I slowly realised that working hard on your research and applying for a funded PhD. program (although tougher to get) might be a better option, which came naturally to me, thankfully due to the grace of Babaji. Also i felt that if had to take such loans i would have to spend at least 2-3 years working for any job before I can even think of applying for PhD. Also the burden on parents who will be mortgaging the loan is something I can't subjugate on them. I realise I have nothing but to be thankful for. Just thought I might share with you. Please bless me that I can be aware at all times and observe each moment as it is.
Love and Regards,
Babu,
When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace.
-Jimi Hendrix.
P.S.: Just copy pasted the mail to my father on my B'Day.
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